Goodbye

You told me that night you would never do what they had just done to me. So I believed you and you do exactly what you promised not to do. Why? I may never figure this one out. It is really bugging me because I really did trust you. Granted that was foolish on my part. But what can I do?
Beg for you to come back?
I think not.
Wait here and hope?
I think not.
Come running after you?
Again I think not.
What I shall do is what i have done way to many times lately.
And that is wish you a nice life. And hope you find a nice guy that will love you, and take care of you. But if I were to say all that I would be lying through my fucking teeth.
And frankly you have proven your self to be such a horrible friend that you are not worth it to me. But I do say it because you have me doubting myself. I told you I loved you. Not romantically, and you know that. But just I love you as a friend.

So here goes I love you Rae, I am sorry you stopped talking to me. I enjoyed our conversations immensely. But I can only assume you did not. And so you have to do what so many people have to do. And that is break off communication. I just wish you could have said good bye. It would have been appreciated. But for whatever reasons you did not. And so I have to say good bye to deaf ears.

Goodbye Rae.