Never Immortal.And I stand in defiance of the wind,Buffeting and bashing this frail human skin,Battered and bruised,I let the sun heal my wounds,And I brace for the next attack,Rain lashes down,Searing and stinging my naked body,Battered and bruised,I let the sun heal my wounds,And I brace for the next attack,Forever I wait,Forever I brace,Forever I hurt,Forever I heal,Forever I stand in defiance,Forever I am immortal,But I dread the numbness of night,That steals my every sensation,It is these cold nights that will be my bane,And end my immortality.
Nikky.i am sorry dearest,I feel like I let you down,I honestly didn't mean to,Why did I do this?Why did I let you down?All this emotion,All this energy,And no way to release it,So I wring these words out of my soul,I pour out my heart in these words,But get nothing out of it,Enjoy what I write if you can,I hope you get something out of it,At least more than I do,A really hot dose to bring out these words,Another drink to raise these emotions,Another line to bring me into this world,And another to take me out.
A shit muffin I know.Chanting,Repetition,Primal,Uncouth,Music to my ears,Strikes my heart full of love for my family,We strike you with all of those suppressed fears,Did you really think they would fade with the sunlight?Did you think that they only stayed in the darkness of night?Live and suffer,As you persecute me and my kind.
Dreams are a lie.Oh what I would give,To dream again,To dream of beauty and passion,Love and faithfulness,Oh what I would give to have such,But I have my nightmares instead,Meaningless words echoing,In the endless corridors of my mind,Driving me in circles,Endless and hideous,These walls are ever and always the same,Unchanging as the seasons,Ugly as the dead that live in these halls,Ugly as I,Unchanging as I.
I am worse.Call me worse than satan?Call me demon spawn,Call me a living blasphemy,Call me whatever you want,Just make sure you spell it right bitch,I am your scape goat,I am your shoulder to cry on,I am the person you hate,I am the person you fear,You hate me like I hate you,But indeed I may be the devil,But indeed I may be demon spawn,But indeed I may be a living blasphemy,I am your scape goat,I am watching and laughing as I watch you cry,I love to be hated,I love that you fear me,I hate you like you hate me.I am not the devil,I am not demon spawn,I am not a living blasphemy,I am so much worse.
poisonConfusion kicks in,I don't know what to say,Where to go,But I need to get away,I need to run away from this one horse town,I can't stand these little insecurities,Gently nagging,Never ceasing in their fight for the destruction of my sanity,This is almost complete,This is really getting to me now,This lack of emotions,These thoughts running through my mind,Of how I wish I could blank out my thoughts,They are polluting me and poisoning me.